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it's zoro's birthday!! happy birthday big guy, may you say many more insane things to your enemies in the coming years
#one piece#zolu#comic#a while ago I reread some of the earlier arcs in one piece and was caught off guard by zoro's dialogue in the daz bonez fight#finally got around to making a comic abt it#boys fluctuating wildly between chatting shit n making jabs at eachother n having a sweet heartfelt moment#they have the range#the weird shape next to zoro's face in the second panel used to be a question mark#umm but it didn't get erased fully apparently#and im too lazy to do anything about that now that i've noticed it so enjoy!#oh also when luffy says baaastard hes imitating zoro saying temeeeee#does quite have the same feel...“baaaa” like a sheeps bleat vs the kinda drawl-y rumble of “meeee”...oh well
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Here’s a bad guys line up!
I’ve been thinking about how I want to draw these guys recently, and I figure I may as well draw it out!
I’ll be using these designs for any projects I tackle with them going forward! (Unless I change my mind on things)
Nightmare by jokublog
Dust by askdusttale
Killer by rahafwabas
Horror by sourapplestudios
Cross by jakei
#nightmares gang#nightmare#nightmare sans#dust sans#murder sans#killer sans#horror sans#cross sans#re design#utmv#undertale multiverse#drawing#anime art#my art#digital art#digital drawing#fanart#undertale#sans#bad sanses#murder time trio#but yeah#I’ve had some ideas floating around for a while#and finally got the time to draw them out#partially cause I’m home sick at the moment#I forgot how much effort character lineups take lol#this took like 11 hours#I left cross mostly as he is currently#cause his fit is kinda cunty#I also left dust relatively close to OG sans
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priest guy sending mixed signals, what is he up to?🤨🕶🤏
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[Image Description: A warm-toned comic featuring Trigun98 characters. It opens with Vash shouting "YOWCH!!" as a half-eaten donut flies through the air, a bruise on Vash's tongue. Meryl, editing papers, is annoyed as he complains: "Ow! Ow! I bi'e my 'ongue..." "What's the rush?" Meryl asks, "They're all yours." Vash, still hurt, tries to explain: "They're jus' sooo good!" Meryl argues back, "Well, savour it then!" Wolfwood has been watching the scene unfold as Meryl continues, "Satisfying your sweet tooth doesn't come cheap, unfortunately." Wolfwood clicks his lighter open and closed, again and again. Without a word, he leans closer, his thumb on Vash's lips. "Wolfwood...?" Vash trails off. Then, Wolfwood opens Vash's mouth and knicks his thumb on one of Vash's canines in one fell swoop. "Wah? Huh??" Vash says as Wolfwood pulls his bleeding thumb away. He licks the blood off the wound then snickers at Vash. Meryl looks disgusted, Vash has lit up in an embarrassed explosion, and Milly remarks, curious: "Those are surprisingly sharp, Mr. Vash!" Question marks float around Vash, and his donuts lay discarded on the table. Each panel is signed by raepliica. End ID]
#trigun#trigun 1998#trigun 98#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#vashwood#raepliica_art#ww has a thing for vash's fangs (because i said so)#i just know ww has had some interesting thoughts about those fangs the moment he noticed them‼️🦅🦅💥🦅💥#tbh i saw a wolf skull and went haha vash fangies (proceeded to black out for a week to draw this)#98ww is the most normal ww?🤔 WRONG‼️ he's a freak like the other ones! but kinda in a different way#ww flustering vash by being the weirder one>>>>>>#meryl's dwindling sanity as collateral damage<3#if u squint real hard this is a polygun art#okay maybe it doesn't look like it at all... but it is to me#polycule casually hanging out and one of them HAS to be a freak in public ugh🙄🙄#anyway im rambling ajsksh🏃🏃#enjoy this full colour comic i did to practice while thinking i had lost the ability to colour:] (this is what only doing b&w will do to u)#described#thank you starberry-skies for the id!!♥︎
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…and the happy voices of the witches faded into the distance.
#umineko#umineko no naku koro ni#lambdabern#my art#my finished stuff#my comics#im surprised i managed to finish this at all within february but whatever#(affirmations) i was having some irl moments during this which affected how much i liked it but now that its passed im kinda proud so its ok
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"It wouldn't feel right to... do this without giving us both some time, I think."
〔Sif looks away from you.〕
"But!" You stumble over the word, "Um! Later doesn't mean never!!"
〔You clumsily reach for one of your earrings and take it off. Even when you sleep, you wear studs. It feels kind of strange to go without!〕
〔You're not sure why you picked up the chain in the House. But... it gives you the chance to do this.〕
〔You hook it through one of the chain links and carefully slip on the back.〕
"So... until we're both ready. Until we know for sure! How about a promise?"
"A promise?" Sif echoes.
〔With all the caution in the world, you slip the chain around Sif's neck. They don't flinch. And... neither do you.〕
"A promise to come back to it eventually. We have time."
〔You do have time! Real, moving, twisting time! To think about things!!〕
〔Sif clutches the earring around his neck and smiles shakily.〕
"A promise."
#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat#isat spoilers#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#siffrin isat#isabeau isat#of stitches in sequence#basil paints#basil writes#ive realized that i dont. think these actually count as edits. i stole the background in the first one from the game.#but everything else is kinda 100% me?#so like. technically isabeau wouldnt have taken off his earrings until this moment. but from a spriting standpoint?#having a bunch of sprites with both earrings and then some with one and then some without them is just kinda a pain???#so his portraits are all missing the earrings.
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Autism does not need to come with "exceptionalism" to be accepted.
Autism does not need to come with special skills or talents to be accepted.
Playing into the narrative that autistics have something they can offer to the world, to society, in a form of a special skill in order to make autism more palatable, acceptable, helpful, essentially plays into the notion of an autistic "superpower".
We should be accepting of autism even if it doesn't come with "benefits" to society.
#autism#actually autistic#autistic#actuallyautistic#asd#idk its kinda annoying to hear that “autistics are really good at blah” and then I'm like acceptably average or below average at that skill#or that skill is only good in incredibly niche moments that don't actually benefit anyone but me#also look at some of the big words i used#i used big words when i don't normally#quite chuffed with myself me thinks
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Danny covered his nose with his hand. Where ever he landed smelled absolutely foul, like rotten fruit and burning tires mixed with chem lab.
"Remind me to bring a face mask the next time I explore the Infinite Realms." He muttered, before kicking a soda can down the alley he was in and being repulsed by the squelch sound it made when it came into contact with a very questionable looking puddle, "Better yet, a gas mask." He glanced at the puddle again, "Or I could go full Hazmat." Clockwork had told him this world was full of superheros and villians and to steer clear of it, but once he learned there were aliens in this world he couldn't help himself. Danny had always been weak to his curiosity, but he liked to believe he was cautious, and chose to stay in his Phantom for for added protection.
Turning on his heel he exited onto a deserted street lined on one side by a chain-link fence. The sky above him was filled with clouds so ominous and dark that Danny honestly couldn't tell you if it was night or day, all he knew was that it was going to rain soon and hopefully these awful smells would be drowned out by the downpour.
Danny got his wish only minutes later. Thankfully Phantom was unbothered by the cold and could just bask in the rain as it fell apon him. A lesser known fact about ghosts is that thier clothes are made from thier ectoplasm and are part of thier bodies, much like a second layer of skin, so one would be able to feel things on thier clothes as easily as they would with thier bare skin. The level of sensitivity varies with the type of clothing however. All this to say Danny loved the feeling of the rivulets of rainwater traveling down his ghostly hazmat suit.
He was so preoccupied with enjoying the sensation that he didn't notice anything was wrong until he was jolted forward from the weight of someone landing on his back. The person was quick and precise, taking no time at all to have his wrists pinned behind his back and- weirdly enough- thier teeth digging into the material around his neck.
His parents designed the Hazmat suit Danny was wearing not only to deal with dangerous chemicals, but to fight supernatural foes. The area around the neck was reinforced with the intention of protecting against fatal gunshots and decapitations so naturally someone's jaw wasn't going to be enough to break through to his neck.
Danny let out a laugh as the person kept chewing on his neck like a confused puppy. Oh, Danny thought, they've gone feral. It was odd for someone to go feral but it could occur when a person has gone through something traumatic recently or through extreme stress. It made sense since the person ridding piggy back on him was dressed like a superhero. Danny wondered if that was why the person didn't have a scent. Danny learns facepalmed when he remembered that scentblockers existed and not everyone's scent dramatically changed whenever they went out as a hero. The scent change was probably one of the few things that have kept him alive up to this point to be honest.
"So, I guess you're not going to tell me why you're chewing on my neck like the worlds most pathetic vampire, are you?" No one deserves that title more than the fruitloop to be honest. He made a mental note to use that one against Vlad the next time he saw him.
Chewy whined at this, seeming to slump a bit from the apparent failure to bite him. What was that about? Was this actually a vampire? How would a vampire even react to Dannys ecto-blood combo meal anyway? Would it be like food poisoning? Or would it taste amazing from one undead to another. "I'm not exactly human, are you sure you wanna bite me? I might not taste so good." Danny warned, but the moment he mentioned letting the person bite him they were eager again.
Danny chuckled and unzipped the material only a bit before it was loose enough to move out of the way. The vampires bite came with a sharp pain like he expected but there was no suction. No drinking of blood. Just some weirdo biting Danny on the neck. Huh.
Danny hoped he didn't get rabies from this.
He must have accidentally said that out loud as there was a small laugh from the rooftops above them. There stood another person in a superhero outfit with some really tall dude dressed as a giant bat, and that was when Danny decided to bail. It was one thing to let a maybe vampire bite you in a random street in the middle of the night but more of them? And ones a big scary furry? Hard pass.
Phantom did as Phantoms do and went invisible and intangible, escaping from Biteys jaws and startling the heros. He ignored the distressed whine Munchy let out after loosing their spookyest chew toy and quickly rubbed the scent gland near dannys jaw on the top of thier head as an act of comfort before bolting.
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Danny poked at the bite mark on his neck. Screw rabies, he better not get turned into a werewolf. He didn't need that on top of his ghostly crap. Sam seemed fascinated by the mark, after all, it wasn't every day that Danny got a scar, especially one so obvious. Most injuries heal quickly and leave no trace of him ever being injured in the first place which helped a lot in keeping his secret identity.
Luckily Danny hadn't needed to lie to mom and dad. He truthfully told them about some wierdo jumping off of a nearby rooftop and plunging thier teeth into his neck and that two other people had tried to corner him during this. He assured his mom that he had gotten away quickly but was a little shaken by it and his dad praised him for being brave and managing to escape.
That was nice. But he still had to figure out what was up with this bite...and why he felt so compelled to go back to that city.
Back to that hero.
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Aka an A/B/O au where in Danny's universe all the Alphas are extinct and the betas followed soon after and the DC universe all the Omegas went extinct and betas followed after . Not like a "they finally went extinct in the 1700s after centuries of thier numbers dwindling" thing and became a myth/fairytale (tho I like that too) but a "this might be the missing link between cave men and modern humans" kinda thing.
Its up to you which bat bit Danny and exactly what that means. I love abo aus without smut cause there's so much potential for chaos and I am very much ace.
#dp x dc#fanfiction prompts#prompts#abo#everyone is confused and no one has answers#i would however like some slowburn romance#whichever bat you choose is going to get teased forever for running up to some random meta and biting the crap outta them#i tricked yall into reading an abo prompt didnt i?#i slept little over an hour last night so i woke up choosing violence#its been a very bad day#the store didnt have a lot of the stuff i needed to buy and on the walk home i saw an older kitten that looked kinda like my cat get hit#the car didnt even stop. poor thing got hit by the next car too and i just stared and it started raining like a freaking movie moment#tw: animal death#tw for the tags#so i got new trauma today#gonna make that everyone elses problem#a/b/o dynamics#kinda#just wanted to add the tag incase yall have it filtered
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ive been thinking about the red string superstition recently and also sol bufo always and it makes me sick how uncannily caldwell tanner has made sol to perfectly target me personally
(+ cropped versions !)
#naddpod#ba2mia#ba2umia#solum bufo#swag daniels#calliope petrichor#calder kilde#alexandrite#posts by me dot com#okay..... SECRET TAGS RAMBLE!#so basically this superstition is like ... i think a chinese/buddhist/taoist superstition?#ive taken some creative liberties with it... but its mostly accurate to how its been told to me?#but of course theres lots of variations! some more abt bad luck; some say to tie it on the doorknob#etc etc ... lots a variations#i was also rlly interested in the .... weird illogic? of the thing?#like the red attracts and repels spirits at the same time#so thats something i was thinking about with too. red is assocuated with both swag and alexandrite. which to me was kinda reflecting like#i think what murph said . swags place in the wild is in a way. an extension of what he learned from the network#mothership s inextractivle from sol and swags lives. they will always be held doen by it. thats the spirit that will follow them forever#that they choose to hold on too! as much pain as it brought ... some of the experience was worth it#and anyway. theres somethingwrong w me that the minute someone brought up this superstition my brain went#'ohhh just like sol!' < needs to touch grass moment#but i CANT BELIEVE. CALDWELL DID THE RED STRING. AND ITS LITERALLY A MOURNING RITUAL#caldwell keeps accodentally makig that frog ASIAN. to MEEEE!!!!!!#but. anyway. idk. ive always hced sol kept the piece of yarn and it makes me kinda .... what if y let the malicious spirits follow you.#and haunt you. what if its the closest you can get to keeping the person still around#and sol and swag obviously have so much about homes .... so!#(ok. weve reached the pt where maybe nobodys reading? so confession is this is sort of a well. ive just been doodling this comic everyday#after a wake. and it was sort of inspired after realising i was even a bit sad about it maybe. so. idk its about sol but also?#i guess the projection doesnt end at him being asian. hehe. is what i mean. LOL. okay secret tags over . buried lore. dont look here folks)
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there's no way the bathroom at peppino's pizza is actually that big but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . hey ummm anyway.... i care them...... anyway there's a lil ramble on my take on fake pep's like psyche or whatever in tags on the og post if ur into that kinda thing :y
hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette] [peppino]<- u are here [gustavo] [gerome] [noisette again]
#ramble after realtags yeag. shoutout to serrangelic btw suggesting the silhouettes thing bc i would have Died otherwise#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#fake peppino#gustavo and brick#arting#pizzaposting#so anyway i think fake peppino has like. a general awareness that he is supposed to Be Peppino and that he was Made to do that#and likewise he does generally try to...do that. the thing he does NOT realize is hes like really goddamn bad at it#not to be mean but like...c'mon. they are pretty distinctly different kinds of guys even beyond the physiology yknow.#he's neither on-brand nor fooling anyone dsjdsjjkgfsd. BUT!#since the rest of the cast generally likes him [at least as I play it] he thinks hes doing just fine#he's like 'oh they r happy with me so i must be getting a good grade in being peppino :)'#so getting told that 'yeah you actually really suck at that but that was never the reason people liked you'#and told that by og model peppino no less--yknow THE guy he's supposed to be living up to#who's already a bit intimidating for that and who ALSO totally wrecked him TWICE in the tower#making him acutely familiar with just how formidable the guy is and how much there IS to live up to....#it's a Moment for sure. not really a sad or hurt one though. just... contemplative.#thinking abt people liking him for being the guy he's already naturally been being even though that guy is Not Peppino#i don't think he's gonna be super broken up about realizing he has a bad grade in peppino given everything else hes got now#nor do i really think he cares enough to go like reinvent himself or whatever after the fact#he seems to b pretty clearly having fun with it already so i think he just keeps doing that#and in some cases he still has the pre-installed peppino traits/instincts like to cooka da pizza. and that's fine#is this projection. yes. but if youve been following me awhile you know most of my character writing is ghdhfdgf#gonna kinda expand on all this in the gerome one which is...one after next. itll be a bit but man.#anyway peppino will never admit to anyone and especially not himself that he's gotten a little attached to the guy. hee hoo#pep tends to be kinda surly but he certainly has his ways of showing he cares. all of which are on display here#''that thing is not my son'' says man currently watching thing's antics with the 'bemused dad' arms crossed pose. yeah ok buddy.#gus is totally onto him already but hes not gonna say anything.#if u read all this ur prize is not having to go decode fp's rot13. his lines are ''meant to be you...?'' and ''wrong question.''
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Angel Dust Turns Human pt6
"Alastor & Angels background 3"
Pg1 Pg2 Pg3 Pg4 Pg5
Originally this was part of pt5, but Tumblr doesn't allow more than 31 pics so☹️ Sorry it took awhile, I've been putting off positing this mainly cuz I've been busy w assignments and wanting to catch up w my hobbies💔 but I finally finished fall classes so YAYAYA🙂
Antoní is PLATONICALLY blushing bc he's flustered that someone would care enough to give him something in general🙂🫶!! He's thinking, 'Woah, a whole scarf! Omg, this is so sweet and kind!!' (NO ITS NOT IT'S THE BARE MINUMUM-). Also, sorry, Alastors shoulders kinda look less broad😓! Also, pg 15 (or 16?) Angel dust's cheeks look more pinchable than I remember lol🤭!
Anyways, we're finally kinda back to the present!😁 but uh-oh, Angel knows there'll be consequences eventually☹️ I feel like Alastor has only been saying Antoní, but I promise he'll have more dialogue in the next one😥!!! He just missed his little boy; he hasn't said that name in years!! Also, I should let it be known that Angel Dust's human form WILL be getting a haircut‼️ it may look aesthetically messy, but it's actually just clumped up hair!🤫
Again, sorry for the delay and hope you like pt6🙂🫶
Tag list: @diffidentphantom
#hazbin hotel#angel dust#alastor#fanart#hazbin art#no romance#charlie morningstar#comic art#fan comic#yandere parent#/platonic#yandere#found family#platonic yandere#fatherlylove#parental alastor#parental yandere#parental figure#possessive alastor#possesive love#protectiveness#I can finally draw moments where both alastor and angel dust interact in the present!!! HOORAH😁#Teehee its gonna look like Alastor wants to kill Angel dust soooo bad🤫😊♡!!#at least I hope it so🤨#Next parts will discuss the difference between human and demon(?) angel dust. Mainly about his KINDA meekness#Hc that angel dust (as a kid) loved window shopping but knew his ass would be beaten to death if he spoke of it aloud (he loves dresses)#a part of me wants to hc him as hispanic in this comic mainly bc I am too and who doesnt love self-projecting?🤫#but I also know some ppl tweek at these ethnicity changes🧎! He'd still be italian but his unknown bio dad would be latino cuz I am so🙂#I love feeling represented😒#I probably wont do it but just know he doesnt appear as a white man in my mind. Still blonde tho🤫
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#there's more for sure but these are what came to mind first#this show is always so good to me when i get to be there for someones first watch through#cause during a lot of the “funny” scenes im very In My Feelings about Anthy getting to experience some level of joy#and during all the “serious” scenes im trying to be as unreactive as possible#so i dont either defend nanami before it makes sense to and dont give away that anthy is sus too soon#they be like “why tf is she getting slapped so much leave her ALONE” and im nodding along with maximum effort just so i dont go#WELL YOU SEE ISNT IT ODD THAT YOUR EXACT REACTION IS WHAT ANTHY KINDA IS LOOKING FOR IN THOSE MOMENTS HMM ISNT THAT VERY INTERESTING HMMMM#ahahahahahah#my post#revolutionary girl utena#rgu#shoujo kakumei utena#sku#poll#the meme bride
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a few more Daniel moments from the 2024 Paris Supercross
#daniel ricciardo#autumn posts#okay last bunch for now!!#I gotta get to sleep!!#but ahhhhhh HIM!! 💞🥹✨💖💫#these are kinda not so hq so I bunched them together#also thanks y'all so much for the kind tags 💞💞🥺#a blessed evening fr fr ahh#cannot wait to see what he was filming in some of these 👀💞#also it seems like he had a few moments in the broadcast of the supercross!!#it may be available for streaming somewhere maybe!!#ahhh anyways I just love him most ardently 🫠💞✨#goodnight from Texas!! 🛌🌙🐄
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ends off 2023 drawings w/ strawberry and her bestie who is (used to be) a war criminal ^_^
(close ups !!!!!!!!!)
#WHAT POSSESSED ME TO DRAW LIKE THIS#I LOWKEY KINDA ATE W/ THIS ONE GANG😳😳😳😳...........#moments i have w/ some drawings that makes me go like woah i fucking just did that😧 inna good way ykwim??#also was practicing with perspective and dynamic poses#which i might do more often bc woah this is fun todo#strawberry cookie#strawberry cookie run#strawberry crepe cookie#strawberry crepe cookie run#crk#cookie run kingdom#crob#cookie run oven break#cookie run#cookie run fanart#fanart#dxoxlinq's art
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Pictured: a guy with autism, probably ADHD, and self worth issues who uses humor and repression to cope (and his super cool autistic gf who has her own set of wacky issues). A people pleaser, hates when people don’t like him. Can’t be mad if he pretends to like doing everything. A little naive. Wears his emotions on his sleeve. Will likely spend the next hour or so overanalyzing how someone responded to him saying hello
Fanon perception: femboy. Bottom. Can’t do anything for himself cause his girl boss gf does everything while he cheers her on. Loves doing anything. Yes, anything. Never swears cause he’s too much of an innocent uwu baby man. Too stupid to realize people may not like him and just thinks everyone is so kind to him and likes him.
#murder drones#uzi doorman#serial designation n#I’ll forever say that I kinda hate fanon N#not kinda actually I despise it#man doesn’t act typically masculine and people auto assume femboy#feels like some people base their perception of N off the marketing and ep1 exclusively#even then ep1 has moments where he doesn’t act like that#this is aimed at no one in particular btw
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Can I just say that I absolutely LOVE how ever since they all found out that MC is human and was brought here against their will, it was Lucifer who kept insisting that they shouldn't be the ones to trap MC in the Devildom. That whether they want to stay or not is a decision MC has to make themself and that the brothers should support them no matter what they end up choosing
And now that the moment is finally here, now that MC has confirmed that they indeed plan on heading home, and now that all of his brothers agreed on helping them get back, having forged a pact and lending their powers to do so—
Now that he knows that he's the final piece needed to send them back; that the lingering idea of the yet to be forged pact between them is what's stopping MC from potentially leaving their side for good, leaving his side for good—
Now that they have finally gotten to this point, he realizes something. And he's unable to live with it
And so, he goes back on his word.
He's taking that choice from them.
"I don't want to."
Lucifer's pride is what keeps his voice leveled and neutral, as if it were just another day. As if he everything was completely fine. As if he didn't feel this pain in his heart, almost as if someone had rammed a dagger through his chest over and over and over again
To most people, he'd appear to be in perfect control of his emotions—if only his gaze wouldn't completely obliterated that frail façade of his. The way his beautiful dark eyes shimmering with a hint of blood red silently plead, beg MC to stay...
Internally, he is breaking apart because he knows what he is doing isn't right. He knows that he shouldn't trap them like a bird in a cage, and yet he can't help himself. Not in this situation. Not when it comes to MC
'No'
He—Lucifer, Avatar of Pride himself—is the last thing trapping the very person that finally made him realize what his sister had meant forever ago
'I won't let you go'
How one day, someone would stumble their way into his life, and how he'd love them so wholeheartedly and so deeply that everything else would become trivial as long as he'd get to hold them in his arms
'I can't let you go'
Someone that he'd happily throw away everything for, not even considering any alternatives if only for the shred of a chance at just one last tomorrow with them
'Please stay with us. Please stay with me'
Everything.
'I cannot lose you, MC'
Even if they'll never forgive him for it.
"I'm not going to forge a pact with MC."
#obey me nightbringer lesson 34 spoilers#slipped into writing mode at some point whoops#this was such a small moment but i love it so much#it does so much for his character even tho you don't realize it at first#tho ngl his “i don't wanna >:(” kinda makes him sound like a 5yo SDJDAKFLHSLGHSD#it's okay luci we love you anyway <3 (lass mich in meine zeit zurück du hu--)#anyway i already mentioned this in the post but the way he kept his expression neutral?#THE WAY HE KEPT HIS EXPRESSION PREFECTLY NEUTRAL?!?!?!??!!?#you just know he was BREAKING APART inside#i swear sometimes i'm so soft for him#anyway can you tell i have a lot of emotions rn HSDJAKFLHSHGSG#obey me spoilers#obey me nightbringer spoilers#obey me lesson 34 spoilers#obey me#obey me nightbringer#obey me nightbringer lesson 34#obey me lesson 34#;mel's main story disscetion#;mel's analyses
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thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.
#banana fish spoilers#I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT#mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol#yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY#whatever hope this makes sense. anyway#banana fish#okumura eiji#ash lynx#asheiji#hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh#anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god#and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character#that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1#dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him.....#anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up#edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras#ing that i forgot >;/
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